Smancy Party

So last night was my Smancy Party! Smashed + Fancy = Smancy. We were going for an Audrey Hepburn/Breakfast at Tiffany’s look and I think, for the most part, we succeeded (excluding the big ass bear in a tie). I feel that this was my most successful party yet of this year, but there is more to come yet!

Smancy PartyI have to make a list of attendees, because I have no idea what the total amount of people was…
Emily, Lance, Chris, James, Stephanie, Kameron, Scruffy, Ty, Travis, Dylan, Shane, Ashley, Zach, Taylor, Santos, Joey, Emma, Ryan, Kelsey and her friend, Sawyer, his brother and his girlfriend, Andy, Cory, Becca and her friend, Alisha, Rozeee, Matt, Tatiana, Jamie, Reyna…. + me! 34

I am really happy that these parties are becoming more and more successful, and I am learning so much about people and myself through out all of the adventures. You can’t have a successful gathering without people who give back to the energy as much as you put in. People have a great time and make new friends and memories.. what could be better during this time in our lives?

It is so important to reflect on these times and remember how fortunate I am in life. Yesterday, I felt sad and confused about so many different, random things and I am so glad that only 24 hours later, I am learning why I was sad and how I can prevent that from happening again. I really do take on the hardship of others in my mind and let the uncontrollable effect the ability I have to understand what I can control.

I have nice people surrounding me almost all of the time; I can do basically whatever I want; I know I am a good person and I am working on getting better; every day I live is another day I love.

100 Days of Happiness: Day 14

I’m two days off track in writing, but that is what the focus of my happiness for this entry: pressing the pause button and appreciating life by taking a step back. My dad always tells me that you can do what you love, and do it until you die, but if you don’t take a break to rest your bones and rest your mind, you might end up off course or burnt out.

Even with things as simple as writing in a journal everyday, there’s a point where taking a “vacation” is healthy. Letting your mind rest and not worry about something you need to do, by your own standards or by others. It’s like working: you need a weekend. Maybe not as frequently, but there are times when it’s necessary. You just need to have the strength of willpower to get you back on track when it’s time to go again.

I’m happy to have thing take up my time: my art, writing, cooking, friends, local shows (and non-local shows), work, school, volunteering, etc. And at the same time, I am happy to have small breaks from all of those things when the time is right. Taking a breather is just as important as being productive when you lead a full life.

100 Days of Happiness: Day 13

Good health!

After this week, I will be done with physical therapy I’m pretty sure and almost back to normal, after breaking my ankle. This has been a really important lesson in taking care of myself and understanding (on a very small scale) how difficult life can be for someone who is not completely able bodied.

I am happy that I could recover quickly – I did the deed on May 30th, and here it is July 28th. My last day of PT is July 30th. So exactly 2 months and I have almost completely recovered. That’s pretty dang good. I thought I was going to be incapacitated for a much longer time.

I am happy that I have my friends and family to support me. They have really made life exceptionally easy on me through out this whole ordeal. I hope that they never have to experience something like this in the future, but if they do, I will be there for them just as they were for me!

100 Days of Happiness: Day 12

SobrietyThe Pajama Party last night was a success, for the most part. With only 5 hours of sleep and now at work, I am groggy with soar neck, but I am ecstatic and so overwhelmingly grateful for my friends and my life. Even with the down-in-the-deeps issues that we are faced with sometimes, I can still say with extreme confidence that life. is. beautiful!

We all came together and gathered $53 for a fundraiser that is being hosted by an old, dear friend that most of the Atown Park Rat grew up with; Destiny. That, in itself, is such an eye-opening inspiration to me! Knowing that if you give them the opportunity, more often then not, a majority of the community WILL pitch in. Not everyone can help in every way, but when they can, they will.

There was a hiccup at the end of the night that is the inspiration for this post, aside from the positives I experienced… Someone who I haven’t had the opportunity to be around very frequently came over in the middle of the party and ended up so ridiculously drunk, it took 6 people to convince him to leave. That was after he was inappropriately rubbing on multiple people, doing yoga in the middle of the walk way and falling over everywhere (with his doodle sticking out sometimes… eek…), playing guitar at 2a.m. and blasting my stereo system and just being all around inconsiderate. We finally got him in his van, someone drove him to the nearest Park n’ Ride and he slept it off, (after texting me 20+ times).

It just made me realize how people can change so quickly, and so immensely, with the intake of poison. Any kind of poison, really – be it a physical intoxication or a mental consumption. To consume so much alcohol that it overtakes you mind and body; to dwell within a negative mindset for an extended period of time to the point where you feel you can’t rise above your own thoughts.. these things are unhealthy traits and habits that I feel people should spend more time focusing on, examining and reacting appropriately from their experiences. That if you get too drunk and various people ask you to refrain from touching them or whatever, perhaps the next time you have a clear mind, you need to sit with yourself and review your choices….

I am happy to be sober from the poisons that once overcame me with despair and addiction. I am still on a journey of clean health and mind, and I am no where near exempt from the pit falls of tasting a new poison, never tried before, but I am proud of myself to never let it get to a point where I feel like the actions I made could not be explained or reversed. A sober mind is a happy mind, in my personal opinion.

100 Days of Happiness: Day 11

Tea PartySince the beginning of 2014, I have thrown about one house party every month. It started with a simple fort party, where less than 10 people came. Next, it was a tea party, and then after that an Expression Party.. there was another random party that tried to replicate the expression party, but it was unsuccessful in comparison. The Summer Solstice party in June was great, and July 1st I hosted my bestfriend’s 21st Birthday party at my house as well.

Tonight, I am having a Pajama party!! I always get nervous right before it happens, but regardless of how many people show up, I know it will be a good time. I will have my close friends with me for sure, and we always have fun no matter what.

I love to be able to do these kind of things… not many of my friends have the ability to do the same. I am blessed with cool parents who think that I am a responsible fun-loving person, so they have no problem with it; I am blessed with awesome friends who show up and make the night a success by being there; I am blessed with a nice house, a decent amount of land, patient neighbors who kindly put up with our shenanigans and don’t call the cops, and the time and energy to pull of this off.

The adventures I have in putting these parties on make me really happy. I love to be able to bring people together, and I hope that I will continue to attract more people to come so I can meet new friends, strength old friendships and influence people. One day soon, I hope to have a Compassion Party. If that were to be successful, I’d be ecstatic!!


100 Days of Happiness: Day 10

Rescued Human Dog rescue! It is my passion, my calling in life. I’ve always known that I a) wanted to work with animals, b) wanted to change the world to be a better place, and c) make a living by society’s standards in a form that makes me happy by my own standards. Dog rescue is all of that for me.

I currently have 7 rescue dogs and 2 rescue cats at home. I was volunteering once a week, if not twice, at the local dog rescue – Meade Canine Rescue – and was getting a lot of different people to join me every week. I hosted my own fundraiser for Meade in May and raised over $300 for the rescue. I am currently working on my own Dog Blog – – which just hit 100 Followers, so I am doing a Giveaway! I am continuously trying to inform, educate and get others involved with the welfare of our animal companions. Sometimes it proves harder than I wish, and I can become very morose and discouraged by people’s actions and words, but I have not given up. I will continue to fight, because giving up is not an option.

Since becoming involved in dog rescue through Facebook and the Crossposting community, thanks to Meade supporter, Julie Anderson, I have evolved into a better person than who I was 2 years ago, or ever a year ago. Dog rescue has made compassion take over my whole body, heart and soul. I feel so deeply now, and I think of others with more kindness, empathy and finesse; I am not so harsh to judge or to condemn others. It has shown me what great changes can happen when you stop speaking, and start acting. I have learned to be more of a caring and active person all around, and I owe it solely to the dogs and their journeys.

I am going to live my life to make the lives of the innocent animals around me, better.
♥ We are their voice ♥
If you can’t adopt – Foster
If you can’t foster – Sponsor
If you can’t sponsor – Volunteer
If you can’t volunteer – Donate
If you can’t donate – Educate. Network. Cross-Post.
Everyone can do something to help save a life.

100 Days of Happiness: Day 9

VeganFood! (Image taken from Google Search ‘vegan food’)

Every day I need to count my blessings for having the ability to fill my empty stomach, feed the ones around me, and do so with food of my choice and preference. I love to eat, I love to cook, I love to share recipes and prepare meals for my family and others. I am very thankful to be able to do so, because I know I am much richer than so many people in the world in the ability to do this.

I am not 100% vegan, but I am getting closer to that goal as each day passes by. I have been supporting the local farmer’s markets on Wednesday’s here in town, and I hope to visit other local farmer’s markets to see what else is available on different days. We are also growing food at home, and I want to learn how to can and preserve these foods. Planting, Growing, Harvesting, Preserving and Cooking are SUCH important skills to have to be self-sustainable and self-reliant.

I wish that others who are hungry will soon be fed. I wish that those with empty stomachs will know what a full stomach feels like, and will continue to feel full for the rest of their time. I don’t want anyone to starve anymore, and I wish there was more I could do then send money to “non-profits” in hopes that they actually do good with it. It’s so hard to know anymore. I wish for people to be fed, no matter who they are or where they live. Everyone deserves to know the joys of meal time.

Every bite I take is a blessing. Every time I am fed, I become happy!

100 Days of Happiness: Day 8


Silence and solitude are things I desire greatly and cherish with much appreciation. I feel like sometimes I don’t get enough of them, and I try to make time to allow myself to have them. It is important to me to be alone and to get lost in my own thoughts and day dreams, with no agenda on the back burner.

I feel as if my days are filled with, what do I need to do? What do I want to do? What have I not done? These thoughts constantly running through my mind, with the additional thoughts and comments from others coming at me from all angles. It makes for a productive and pleasurable life that I enjoy living. But even still, I need time to myself. In a place where no I know is around me (intentionally). In a setting that makes me comfortable, and I am not trying to please or entertain another.

I try and seek refuge through meditation at home, but my house is filled almost constantly with the sound of the television, computer or people talking in general. I have a hard time blocking them out; I can’t feel at peace without static or dull noise to ease my receptors. I don’t want to pay attention to what’s going on around me in those times.

Therefore, I have times to myself where I can feel calm and serene. Driving around aimlessly. Sitting in a random parking lot or back road. Using the treadmill helps a lot too. There are more ways that I should try and find, but I am happy with what I have now and I look forward to those times with much joy!

100 Days of Happiness: Day 7


Christopher “Chaptass”

This guy is my rock. I am so lucky and thankful to have a best friend in him. I literally have no idea what I would do without him. His support is unwavering and relentless, in my best and my worst of times. I think he knows more about me than any one else (excluding my parents). I trust him with basically everything, even the things I probably shouldn’t be comfortable telling a guy – but he let’s it roll off the awkward scale and doesn’t hold it against me, hahahaha.

We’ve been friends since 2006 – almost 10 years now. We’ve gone through ups and downs and haven’t always been as close as we are now. There were times we’d spend every day together, and other times when I wouldn’t see him for months, even though he was right down the street. But in the last year, as both of us and Emily have matured, we’ve come to a level playing field where we all feel comfortable. It has made our friendships together so much stronger. I am so proud of how far we’ve come.

We will continue to grow even more with the support of each other, and that is what is most exciting. We’re living every day in the moment, as best as possible, but we’ve got so much to look forward to. We’re moving at what seems like such a fast pace, but we’re not getting to the next point fast enough… it’s confusing, as I’m sure it is for everyone our age. But we have each other to fall back on in desperate, frustrating times and that is what matters most.

Our friendship is incredibly important to me in so many ways. I would not be the person I am today without Chris!

100 Days of Happiness: Day 6


(“Juno” 7/16/14)

Being able to express myself is one of the most important and validating feelings a person can have, I think. Creating art through paintings and portraits, poetry, short stories and whatever else I can come up with brings so much joy to my life. I am very blessed to not only have the ability to create what I wish, but the fact that I can at any time.

In one of my favorite TV shows, ‘Angel’, they introduce a character named Lorne who comes to our dimension because he hears music in his head, but in his dimension, they have no songs or music. He needs to escape to find a place where he can sing and express his feelings through his gift. It always made me think about a world without art or music, and how tragic life would be without them; how valuable creation is to the soul…

I wish I could create every day, all day long, in every way possible. I was literally just offered, as I started writing this entry, to possibly collaborate with another local artist to do a large mural on an outside wall in town. I hope this is a legitimate thing because I would love to expand my abilities and learning possibilities.

Creating what beauty I can through any form of art is so meaningful and overwhelmingly important to me. I would not be complete if I didn’t find a way to express myself everyday. Through my creations and ideas, I have built wonderful friendships and have seen amazing things happen through companionship in making thoughts come to life.